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sec one squad'06
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sec four squad '09


with NCOs '08

with NCO'07


There is only one wish on my mind
When this day is through I hope that I will find
That tomorrow will be just the same for you and me
All I need will be mine if you are here
I'm on the top of the world lookin' down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I've found ever since you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world

活着是NP的人
死了是NP的鬼

It seems like just yesterday that the yellows took over. Now they are leaving us.
Today's POP/ Farewell Party.
I hope that it's a success since like so many of us put in so much effort (:
I'm like a walking zombie already ):

Jiayous UNIT.
Jiayous SQUAD.

Hello sec 3s, Bye sec 4s.
We'd miss yall somehow (:



Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

So its really not fair when you have to bear the consequences of what others have done ):

POP PREP (:

I miss waitiem, hazel, wendy, xiaoxin, zoe anne, pauline etc etc ): I want to see them soon (:

Boo, my toe and head sill hurts from yesterday's spar moving.
Thankfully i have not become more retarded (:

Feeling bad ): ): Please recover! Please don't become retarded ):

BIO TEST ON FRIDAY!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZOE ANNE <3
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SICHEN <3

I practically slept through all my lessons today. Great. Cos i decided to eat my medicines before i go to school so i felt drowsy thoroughout the entire day. Slept during listening compre. Thank goodness, i didnt do badly for it ( : 

After school, moved spars from the QM room to QM shed. Super hot, then super stuffy. The spars are just horribly woody and splinter prone.It was basically...dusty. There were 2 challenges. The first- Moving the long long spars out of the QM room. The second- moving the long long spars into the spar shed's spar rack. Big thank you to all that came down to help :)  Should i say Mrs Tan is very unlucky or she is just accident prone. A spar dropped on her head then yeah, there was quite a loud sound. Guess it hurt pretty much but she said it was okay. I wonder if she has become more retarded. Aye, whichever. Hopefully, she didn't. I didnt mean it literally when i said that i don't want her dead YET. I don't even want her dead. Aye. She played along when CM and i were testing her "intelligence" after the bang. She apparently 'forgot' who is she, who her husband is, who we are, what's maths. Super lame. Then we kept her within a boundary to prevent her from getting any further injury.

Today super 温馨. It has been ages since our squad has came together to do something so meaningful. Actually not that meaningful but yes, at least, its something our squad do together! Very long didn't do things together already! I suddenly feel that my squad is back ( : Stupid wanlin and lovin and vlai locked us (jesslyn and me) in the shed > :/ yaye, then we got out anyway. so when melanie came down for inspection, we locked her in the spar shed :D cos she walked into the shed to inspect the spars on the spar rack. "WAH, so cute" yes, after she said that, she got locked up.Actually we didn't even lock the fence, we just...closed it then melanie presumed that we locked her up inside. so she started whining for us to let her out.

After that, pig and i went for T-u-i-t-i-o-n. I have about 8 more days to ORAL. Die. Finally i got to drink my bubble tea today. 

I miss that star! ):

I really just want you to tell me things are going to be okay ): I need that quite badly.

Some people are just making me so fed up. Stop rolling your eyes. They aren't that big, if you continue to roll, they are going to drop out >: / Stop making me irritated with you. 

HAPPY 15th SICHEN :D
HAPPY 17th Dearest HONEY STAR <3 ILY!

There's no use looking back or wondering
How it should be now or might have been
All this I know but still I can't find ways
To let you go

): ):

Maybe, its just me.I miss too much of the old you. The one that cared, the one that was there.

NP! It's taking over my life. Proposals after proposals. Phone calls after phone calls. SMS after SMS. This is getting overwhelming.

The lighter note is that i managed to talk to some of my camp groupmates (: and sunshine and twin and some people.

Uniform of ATC unite!
Met new friends.
This year's camp is horribly slack and unproductive.
Tired Tired. Sunburnt. Sunburnt.
Proposal Proposal Proposal. What more have i been doing since i came back from camp. Haven't touched homework. Sigh.
I wished Mrs Tan could just excuse us (people who went for ATC/STC) from school tomorrow. It's just terribly tiring. I think i will sleep in class tomorrow.
Bye World.

Updates on Camp events. tomorrow.

ATC ATC ATC ATC ATC
Haven't pack. Not a single thing into my bag. Shoots.
I wonder what's gonna happen to me. Pack my bag the very last day before camp.
Sigh. If anything's missing, i won't survive camp ):

"Zoe! you're not allowed to burst your budget!"
I KNOW! trying very hard to...keep within the budget !

I miss the (your) iPOD. Can i have it for a little while longer?boo. I am not done loading the songs but i figured that the amount is currently enough to blast your ears for quite a while. Get well soon. I am not quite used to seeing you fall sick so often ):

Meetings after meetings. Preps after preps. Proposals after proposals. A2 boards after A2 boards. I am not a superwoman. I need a break NOW ): It's only the first week of school.

Mrs Tan Mf suggested to Mrs C and myself that i will pon my atc to go for maths dept open house. TSK TSK. HAHA, failed attempt. I am still going for camp.

Food Comm. Maths Dept open hse, environment 3R, Chemistry test, that's all that's on my mind now. and a lil bit of this and that.

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up

Hello world, it's been ages since i last updated.
Today's the first day of school, so the first present we've got- CHANGE OF SEATS. okay, my new sitting partner is BERNICE.Catched up on alot. I just realised i have alot of deadlines to meet this week. And they are all not academic related.
The change in timetable is kind of bad.
The change in teachers are bad too. I am already missing Miss Soh ): guess what, my new biology teacher is my new teacher officer. That was just a freaking shocking news i got when she first stepped into my class. I said some irrelevant stuff and yes, my partner just kept laughing. How evil. I hope she doesn't take over my squad !
Saturday was really sad, Mr Choo's last duty activity with us. sigh. bye choo! We'd probably miss you once in a while, so please come back. Mrs C Tan is the new OC. I wonder if she is taking over our squad. Or rather who is the new Sec 3 squad OC. Srsly, don't tell me its that CC ): My lips are sealed for comments.
There's STC(survivor training camp)/ ATC(Adventure Training Camp ) from Friday to Sunday this week. I am not sure whether i am going as of now. Maybe!
I just wrote a really cheesy script about Math Week for Open House on saturday.
Food comm is running on a really low budget, sigh. Just look at the number of guest. Just so, Mrs Tan said not all of them will turn up so there isn't so many people eating actually but still, the budget burst ): trying very hard to compress it.Proposal's getting more and more challenging to complete! Due to the new restrictions. We can't cook in the Home economics room so we have to use other means such as the mess tin etc ): Aye, whichever, we'd survive and cook good food. [Trying very hard to think positive!]
Thanks to my new phone, I take about 7-10 mins to text a sms ): and i can't text in class since i can't see the screen ): My old phone DIED on me.
First PE lesson with ahem tomorrow. Dreading pretty much.
Refer to Nicea's blog for my weird reaction to Mr Koh's comment (: Mr Koh's leaving us in 4 weeks time. After he leaves, we don't have anymore male officers.
Throat ulcer hurts big time ):
Srsly, I am having a lot of fun bonding with your iPOD i don't feel like returning it to you anymore. Can i keep it please ? (: Pretty please? (:
and do your homework (that translation thingy) , most importantly. no matter how boring the lecturer, please don't fall asleep during your brain draining/boring/tiring course (:
Jayle prepared breakfast for me today, and she is going to tomorrow as well. yays to her (:  Guess what, i love the breakfast sandwich she makes :D

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you, I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holding you, holding you, holding you
Tonight

I'm currently drowning in my pile of holiday assignments.
Reality /time check, there's only 3 days left of the June holidays. There's so much to do and so little time. That spells trouble.
I am going out with Jayle tomorrow (: It's been ages since i last went out with her <3[She keeps calling me chip! ]
Outing today was (: The movie(get smart) was good too (:
Singapore's really small, so you meet people everywhere and anywhere.
I don't want to return your iPOD (: It's going to be mine! :D Yes,all mine.
Zoe Anne! ): I miss her already!
Nothing could be more disappointing than not having you here with me when i needed you most.

Happy Birthday! :D
15th June- Pei Wen
19th June- Cleo
 
 

I like the food that we are going to cook. Or at least what we have proposed to cook for farewell party. I have quite a responsible AIC whom is easy to communicate with so, yes, things have been quite smooth. She's cooperative :] We cooked quite a bit today. The food was success. Yes. That's what it spells :] I am not going to tell you what i cooked. HAHA, it suppose to be secret till... farewell party :]

I have a new class timetable which sucks b-a-d-l-y. Things are just getting from worse to worst ]:

Tomorrow's going to PLAY DAY. I am going out :] I shall throw everything at the back of my mind. Enjoy myself thoroughly. Think about the upcoming events. The day after tomorrow !

Pictures from sushi :]



Christine has issues with that horse painting ! and its 马到成功 not 功成到马! :D

Sometimes I'm empty
I'm weak or in despair
But it's enough to know
That you are always there
 
I want to watch this :] The dog is just soooo cute.

Yesterday was quite fun :] at least, of all my days of holidays :] Even though we were suppose to do a project but of course.. as usual. We spend 9 hours plus at my house and only one hour was doing the actual work. The remaining 8 hours was playing, slacking talking and eating.
EC reunite. Met Ling Lan and Jane at YCK mrt, guess what, jane being jane is still late[as usual]. Oh wells.haha. don't care :D
Ling Lan was started singing her songs out loud while walking into my house."i have already sang 3 songs and we are not there yet?! How far away is your house!" not that far lah  :D
At my house, the both of them were really funny and quite retarded. I went out to get something printed from the emails,both of them hid themselves on my bed, under the blanket. They wanted to scare me but but but! It was so stuffy and spacy! so they end up laughing and giving themselves away. Imagine. 2 persons on a single bed?[tsk tsk !] Then we started to do..abit of work. DIGRESSION!  we started talking alot about last year and peoples. HAHAHA. All the unglam stuff and funny things that happened in 2 wisdom. Ling Lan was super retarded. OMG. HAHA. she is super funny. We were talking about LAST year. She got herself kind of lost and started talking about THIS year. Talking back, i really miss wisdom ): MEMORABLE OKAY. Cup noodles DA BOMB. We started revealing how much we slept in class and how considerate our partners were to us.I won't mind going through last year all over again, much as i can't . Then Jane was complaining about her not getting any 'special care ETC' for being _'s _ while i did. Actually, i didn't [i think], maybe i did.They say everyone can tell. Okay. HAHA.I don't know! but i like the current way she is treating me :]
Jocelyn came in a cab! guess what. She got lost. They all are complaining that my house is very hard to enter and get out. Not really. Besides the fact that some people really get lost after coming for several times.Is my house that ulu ]:
Watched Ah Long Pte Ltd :] Pei Shan would suddenly 'OhMyGawd' then scream and laugh. It was nice.
Jane ate at least 3/4 of my food supply! That girl has a big appetite which scares me. HAHA. "is there more?"

Updates on NP: I am food IC for POP and Jia Jia is my AIC. Okay, things should be quite fine. We actually have the same rough idea for the menu :] then the caterer would probably by YLX :]

i haven't posted pictures for a long time so yes, i decided to upload them.Anyway, i owe people pictures (: There are more, i am just too lazy to upload them.

H2O  (:

History Lesson (: TWIN!

Billy's birthday!

Partner T2W1-W5

Best Outing (: Missing Wendy.

Science Centre Play


The Bio Lab's toilet

In the lab with sichen

This mirror area is dark and freaky.

You can't see our faces !

The dream house kitchen that look like those in fairyland

SARS BUS. Note : the big mouth structure.

Yes, unwanted.

Jiayu's stealing christine's subway cookie!

Jiayu and Christine's "Last moments" awww.

Graph, the curve looks horrible.


Jubilate- Wendy, Wen Yi


Sunshine and mirror makes me go blind (:

I never thought i'd miss you so much when you're away. Fine, whatever. I just miss you so hurry come back please ]:

Yay! LMNC course is over! i had nice instructors. SJC girls are nice people. We made friends :] It was pretty much an 'alright 'course just that lectures were really boring. Oh wells. Lectures are usually quite boring.
PK course was pretty okay. The chairs got a little comfy so i drifted in and out of sleep. but i managed to copy all the slides notes. I was really tired.oh wells. the pictures on some of the "packages' are somewhat a little gross :/ Tomorrow is the last day of course. Then i can say Bye to all the NP courses of june holidays :] Lunch bento sets reminds me of the SLC at st.john's island [:
People are falling sick. Waking up early, sleeping very late. It's hard to not fall sick.

Time to start doing some of my holiday homework or I'd probably not touch them till the last week. There's a whole stack on my table left unfinished. ]:


Shut up, I hate you. Stop probing, my lips are sealed. I am not going to tell you anything. Go away you piece of thing. You want to know, you go and ask her yourself.If she doesn't tell you that means its not meant for your ears :/ Which part of that logic do you not understand :/

"maybe anger may be the first emotion that sets in, but anger goes as quickly as it comes, but disappointment remains for a longer time"  I'm sorry ]: Can't tell you how much that sentence has made an impact till now ]:

haha, i'm sorry! i still think that she is prettier than you. HEH. Don't be too sad.

Wenyi still owes me pictures (:

I just realised that there will be 8 hours of NP on monday. Crap ):

I am tired.

To da bomb :
Oh I had a lot to say was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same
Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me want to die
I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry I'm blue, I'm sorry about all things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back

 
 
Thursday night (: Okay, MANY people missing ):

So you're leaving tonight. Please come back safely. I miss you already ]: Byebye, have a safe trip.
I have just said byebye to 5 people. They are all leaving today. how sickening all leaving in one day D:

You are not picking up your phone !): I daren't tell you that i had a nightmare that you're leaving me after a horrid accident): It's really sad. I don't dare. All i ever tell you is that i'd miss you. And that i want you to come back in one piece and many many byes. Yes, I'm that afraid. I don't want to imagine a day when i need you to be with me and you are not there anymore ):

Holiday's been worse than a school day ): At least on a school day i get to rest. Holiday everyday just rush rush rush. Be it school, tuition, courses, NP, whichever. I just rush my entire day from 6am till 10pm. Sigh, i just hope this rushing thing ends soon.

Hai, my ranting ears are gone. They have gone for a holiday. Man, i am going to miss them!

My lovely thursday night people! I'd miss you people alot. BYEBYE, 4 or more years together have been filled with quite abit of love. It's hard to say bye now since everyone's grown quite close. Sigh. Oh well. Maybe, it's time we just say byebye. I won't forget the tibits and games and soft toy land! 

JUBILATE was good. I think. Company was good :] BUTBUT! people's blisters were bursting like crazy. GALA night make speople who don't usually dress up... DRESS UP (:Feather Roses!

So now you are gone, i realised a part of me is missing. A very important part. I'd try to survive but probably won't.
T-i-r-i-n-g!

A distant memory
A warning sign of mistakes made
The kind that you learn from
This song is the best of me

天黑之前我踏不出思念
天亮之前我还在想念
没你的夜 星星都不再耀眼
没你的天只剩灰色一片  

I'm too lazy to unlock all the past 200 plus posts. So, i decided that i'd just unlock the 3 latest ones. 
It's really unfair to you ):
Honey Star got burnt ! Aloe Vera! Go go go! Apply, it'd get better (:
Yay, i ate Botak Jones for dinner (:
I just found out that some people are going to leave us. Okay, suddenly, i want them to stay ): 
Buddy, i am going to brainwash you. You've been thinking too deep into things :/ Must brainwash you to not think so much then you'd be happier (:
If you were here now, i'd probably be ranting into your ears. It's been ages since i last talked to you.I think the last time was on the day before fiesta(HOW LONG AGO?).I miss your assuring words. "Cheer up","things are not as bad as they always seems",'must remember to look on the bright side"' was all you ever said. But do you know how much these words have time and again make me feel alright and content. Yes, maybe if you see this now, you could probably text me :] I missed you :]
I'd be meeting besties soon (: 
Extra lessons are coming! :/ That has just burst a happy bubble of mine.
Ting Ting is keep me in suspense. She refuses to tell me ): 
Brenda Tan, lovely (: Cheer up okay!
Lovin loves me. HAHA.Yes ,she's nice (:
ZOE ANNE, I MISSED YOU! <3 Just when are you heading back to visit me huh!
I want to go the expo food fair (: 
I miss 2 Wisdom. Darice suggests a class outing. I agreed (: 
I create a new email account. Then cassie suggested one : zoelovescassie. Yes, i created it. But no, its not the official new one. That was just to make cassie happy (: HAHA. She's so nice,how could i disaapoint her? btw, i became lazy in having add everyone. So i decided to temporary stick to the current one.
I just saw a freaky baby emoticon D: 
Poor Krystal has to be in learning point all alone next term ): Sorry krys! Daphine, Xin Ling, Gracia,Xin Yi and myself were going to quit for term 3 then we forgot to tell krystal. We only told her AFTER she paid the fees for Term 3. Thus, she have to continue alone next term.poor krys.oh well. I'd miss the KFC,tibits,milo mountaining times etc. I've been quite attached to learning point. Now i am leaving, I'm feeling a little sad.Byebye.

YAY, GREAT SINGAPORE SALE :D:D:D EXCITING :]


I know it's kind of late but happy birthday


(credits : Jiayu (: )

2005,2007 <3 I'd remember.

 I want bestie outing ! :D I want a trip back to PCPS! :D I want to study for a day back in my 2W classroom with all my ex-classmates and teachers! :D Just want to feel again how it once felt. Just once.

June hols is going to be so packed. Be it school or NP, they have taken away half my holiday ): (as usual)
I have been listening to my playlist for at least 3 times consecutive, it's getting boring.
It's the first day of hols (: Today's been pretty slack, perharps i'd start working hard tomorrow (: 
I've been sleeping away my entire day and i am still tired. LACK OF SLEEEP. 2 hours a day isn't enough. Catch-up-on-my-sleep-time (:


If you leave me tonight, I'll wake up alone,
Don't tell me I will make it on my own

Today's quite horrible. I need you to tell me everything's going to be alright!
Officially ,school has ended, technically we still have a few more days to pull through.

I missed alot of things ): ): ):

Blinded by the lights
Hold you through forever
Won't let you go